But when it's bad... It's awful

I'm nowhere near feeling complete. I don't think anyone truly feels complete.... ever. But i guess its okay. I feel like i've grown as a person in the last few months. Aged beyond what i could ever explain. I know i have so much more of my life to live. So much more happiness, so much more strife... I think maybe... just maybe, all the pain will be worth it in the end. The struggle is never easy, but the more you struggle, the more rewarding the prize is. And sometimes the prize is being able to start a brand new day and not feel pain. Being able to get up and not be hindered by your past. Being able to keep moving forward.... I feel as if i understand myself a little bit better. I don't know who i am, why i do certain things, why i like this over that; but i do know over time i will eventually discover myself. And that is why life is... beautiful.

or maybe i'm just blabbering at 2 a.m.