Give me time to break your heart (not that i ever would)

SO i was on lookbook today and i saw this title and thought of you. yea YOU. except i added the (not that i ever would) part. lookbook is my current obsession and i see hundreds, heck thousands of people on the site and think to myself, "hey i want to be one of those people". But i can't. because i never will be "one of those people. yup. lets start off with the fact that im not white and to make a statement you are white, black, or asian. PERIOD. thats just how it is. second in like 5'4" aka a midget. in heels im like normal people size. thirdly i have never, nor will i ever be a size 2. EVER. so when all odds are against you, how do you get onto lookbook? YOU DON'T. the fashion world was just not made for girls like me. Why oh why do i love fashion? its a mystery to me.sometimes i think to myself. "hey, you are one in like billions, what makes you so special?" and the thing is.. i don't know. what DOES make me special, because i sure as hell haven't figured it out yet. I shall always be one in the crowd despite my protests. SO yea i feel like writing a lot today, so i shall... after all you don't have to read this is you don't want to. and oh 1 rule about my blog
NO PITY COMMENTS.
i don't want them, keep them away from me ad here. i will choose to rant and moan and groan about myself and life in this blog if i want to. that's one think that pisses me off. whenever you're just having one of those days where everything in the world is beautiful in the world except you and someone says oh you're pretty, just because your having a crappy day. i don't like when people make that comment because i can tell the only reason they said that was they felt obligated to make you feel better when on normal days they would pass you by wordlessly.
so yea ... thats my one rule of this blog so far.

on a brighter side. i have a photo shoot with taylor smith, the most amazing photographer in the world and hey if im lucky maybe i'll be able to get some good pics and see if lookbook accepts me.. for me. so yay!!! i'm just excited for the picture taking part :))

FORMAL... the forbidden city. seriously guys would it kill you to just ask a girl a question. whats the worst we can say??? NO. yup thats it, then you can go onto the next girl or whatever but seriously if you stopped for a second and thought how nice it would make us feel, maybe you would ask us... just a thought.

i'm running on like 1 HOUR OF SLEEP ewww. i really tried to go to bed, but i couldn't. i honestly couldn't. i should probably invest in NyQuil it would do me good.

oh and hellen keller was a COMMUNIST just thought you should know. i was thinking about that today when i was supposed to be writing an in class essay. hehehe how my mind wanders.

i really like how i'm typing with random bold and capitals. it makes it seem like what i'm saying is important and stuff. cool.

ALSO.. bananas contain a natural enzyme that makes you happy. i had 2 bananas for dinner last night, and i think thats why i couldn't sleep. but yea the same enzyme is found in PROZAC. so if you're ever feeling down eat a banana or take a happy pill.

Lets change the font and the color now. just to make it user friendly. i like this color way more that that gross green color. so yea im going to copy natashas format


ME: guess how much sleep i got last night.
BRIANA: 1 hour
ME: WHOAH! how did you know
BRIANA: really? i was just taking a random guess because it sounded like a little.
ME: yea that was scary how accurate it was
BRIANA: why did you sleep so little
ME: idk.. i think it was because i ate 2 bananas for dinner. did you know bananas have this natural enzyme that makes you happy?
BRIANA: really? thats so cool
ME: yea the same thing is found in.... ((long awkward pause))
BRIANA: ??? umm
ME: oh i totally forgot the word. you know the pill!!!
BRIANA: OH!! OH!!! i know what you're talking about!!
ME: yea i know!! but i can't remember the name!!!
BRIANA: i know this!! I SHOULD KNOW THIS!!!
ME: i know me to!! it starts with a P
BRIANA: OH!! OH!! OHHH!! (waving arms furiously)
ME: ppr...pryy
BRIANA: Paa. pooo... pwowww...
ME: pwaaa.... prwaaaaa
BRIANA: prowzaaa
ME: PROZAC!~!!!!!
BRIANA: YES!!
(and then we collapsed into laughter)

BUT YEA.... needless to say the looks on the girls face in the bathroom when i shouted Prozac were HILARIOUS. hahaha



I have way to much fun. there is no way this can be good for my health... :)

But yea... there is a super long blog for you natasha :) pretty much as user friendly as it gets. oh and i WILL hurt you if you go grammar Nazi on me. take my word for it.

NEW POST

So i'm going to try and start blogging again. (cross your fingers) But yea, my first attempt was a complete fail so now i shall try again. SO do you want to know whats happened since i last blogged. Well, i'm going to tell you. you know why i'm going to tell you? i only have two followers, and i doubt they actually follow this... So i'm going to tell you, which i presume is nobody, but what the heck why not.(that was a very weirdly stated sentence, feel free to ignore it). So, my summer consisted of......Working, sleeping, eating, concerts, getting fat in general, comedy sportz camp, and shopping with dead people.(not in that order). Then school started. oh joyful joyful school(or something like that). Homework, fighting, laughing, crushes, sleeping, not sleeping, agony, well what can i say i'm just along for the ride. Then i was told i was moving, am i moving, yes.. wait no... yes.. no.. yes! honestly who knows? i'll tell you. i sure as hell don't know. thanks a bunch stupid parents. (they happen to be the cause of all things horrible in life, i'm only slightly exaggerating). Well now that you're all caught up, i shall truly begin my blog? This post, titled NEW POST because that's what the button said that i clicked on to make a new post. Anyways. i don't know what this blog is going to be about, and frankly i don't care, because if i limit and label it, then i will be limited when i blog. also if you are a grammar Nazi, don't correct me please, because i'm awfully lazy, and don't feel like capitalizing my "i"'s and putting my periods and commas and question marks in the correct place. SO this shall be my random, unorganized, hopefully i post daily blog that shall lead you in and out of my life, and i will assure you at some point there will be rants :) oh the joy of blogging, it sounds like the way my brain works. So today is Sunday. the last day of Thanksgiving "break". i spent my break eating, sleeping and reading. (x3) yup thats it. so i read two books. the first Cruel Summer about a girl that goes to Greece because her parents are getting divorced yadda yadda yadda. She tries to find true love but then she doesnt. the whole world is against her and she hates her life. then she falls in love the end. (i personally hated it) However!!! i dd read It's kind of a funny story by Ned Vizzini and loved the book. Its about the pressure of school and life and it drives the main character into a mental hospital where he meets many people and after his 5 day stay there he looks at life differently, and realizes things about himself... i explain it weird, but you should read it. so yea like 3 hours later because i totally procrastinated i feel i should post this. sorry i;m ending it weird...